Had a really up lifting positive day nad then i thought i would put on my music a bit of kylie I dont really listen to much of kylie after what vicky said.. Anyway I thought I was feeling good put kylie on and then a comment came out about her not being able to sing( admittedly it was a representation of the song that was on) but my brain then goes into hide mode turned off my music and let the radio go... I feel really stupid that something as little and silly as that would make me feel like a caven has opened up.
When it was said the things that came to mind were is it cos i like kylie that people dont like me... I hate my life I hate who i am...
Its been over 7 months I dont feel like ive moved from how i felt 3-4 months ago although 40-50% of the time now I keep my mind busy with other things...
At the moment my mind is doing lots and lots and lots of thinking most of it things Id rather forget. If i dont sleep very well tonight I am sure that tomorrow and the weekend are going to be one big mess.
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